The Next Step

So, it's application season.

As you may guess correctly, I'm a senior. 

Woopie!

Not.

You know, sometimes I just want to punch the student who goes "wow filling out applications is easy!"

If they say that you know:

 a) Their supplement is a joke

 b) They aren't applying to a billion colleges

 c) They're not trying hard enough

 d) They're not feeling stressed

Yeah I'm probably being overly critical, but you know what? I don't really care right now. Because honestly at this point, talking about how "easy" it is to take the first step is just...

Bad.

And I know I'm not alone in thinking this

Similarly, when someone starts asking happily asking where you've gotten accepted already then:

 a) They already have been accepted somewhere

 b) They know they will get in somewhere

 c) They might know you didn't get in

 d) They know you don't know yet

Again, I'm being critical. Of course there are people who genuinely care. But when someone I barely know, barely talk to, and barely see just asks me all these questions

It makes me want to ignore them

Intensely. 

I cases such as these I'd like to enact the "don't act don't tell policy." I know I might be taking this a bit far. I can't help it: I haven't heard back from schools yet and won't be for another week or so. It's freaking tense!!! Especially considering the schools I'm applying to...

Yeah I know I just said don't ask don't tell, but this is my blog, so I'm going to pretend no one could possible read this, and I'll talk about it.

Not that anyone reads this anyways.

I applied to MIT, Caltech and University of Chicago.

For Early

Pretentious right? 

However, I'm allowed to be a dreamer at least a few times in life right?

To take risks?

Even if this... is a rather huge risk...

Hehe then again I haven't told you which schools I'm applying for regular 

Though I'm sure you have a good idea :P

But yes, back to sharing results. I consider, at least at this early point, asking what college you got into so far is like asking what grade you got. It's kinda... 

Well

Grades are a personal thing

So are acceptance/rejection letters

So in this case, it'd be more... 

er... 

"fitting"

for the person to openly come to you and say

"Guess what?! I got into X!!!"

Instead of being asked

And having pressure.

Same goes for standardized test scores...

It's kinda really AWKWARD to talk about your scores

Doesn't matter if you did better or worse than the other person

IT'S AWKWARD

I really hate it when some of my friends openly discuss scores
I don't think I should be obliged in any way to share what I got
 I don't care if they did better or worse than me

To be honest, it's nobody else's business

Ok maybe it is somewhat my parents' business

but that's it. 

...

I guess the only thing left is to say
If someone makes a post like this then:

a) They didn't feel like talking to an actual person about it

b) They're feeling stressed and tense

c) They want something to vent and/or rant at

or

d) all of the above

~Chang'e

Effort Increase

Ok.
This time I'm actually going to try.
I created this blog on a whim. It was originally suppose to be a way for me to communicate with a friend of mine in a foreign country.
Unfortunately, this website seemed to be not liked there (or maybe her computer hated it? Who knows)
Either way, after that this kinda...
Died.
Not going to deny it. Guilty as charged.
I kinda just left this here.
 Hanging
Somehow still existing.

But recently, I've been feeling... hrm...
stressed?
introspective!
tense...
and just overall MEH.
Like I need someone or something to talk to
And sometimes it's not as easy or simple to just spew out at a friend
So I'm going to spew at my computer screen
And see what happens :)
Hope you're all prepared!