The Next Step

So, it's application season.

As you may guess correctly, I'm a senior. 

Woopie!

Not.

You know, sometimes I just want to punch the student who goes "wow filling out applications is easy!"

If they say that you know:

 a) Their supplement is a joke

 b) They aren't applying to a billion colleges

 c) They're not trying hard enough

 d) They're not feeling stressed

Yeah I'm probably being overly critical, but you know what? I don't really care right now. Because honestly at this point, talking about how "easy" it is to take the first step is just...

Bad.

And I know I'm not alone in thinking this

Similarly, when someone starts asking happily asking where you've gotten accepted already then:

 a) They already have been accepted somewhere

 b) They know they will get in somewhere

 c) They might know you didn't get in

 d) They know you don't know yet

Again, I'm being critical. Of course there are people who genuinely care. But when someone I barely know, barely talk to, and barely see just asks me all these questions

It makes me want to ignore them

Intensely. 

I cases such as these I'd like to enact the "don't act don't tell policy." I know I might be taking this a bit far. I can't help it: I haven't heard back from schools yet and won't be for another week or so. It's freaking tense!!! Especially considering the schools I'm applying to...

Yeah I know I just said don't ask don't tell, but this is my blog, so I'm going to pretend no one could possible read this, and I'll talk about it.

Not that anyone reads this anyways.

I applied to MIT, Caltech and University of Chicago.

For Early

Pretentious right? 

However, I'm allowed to be a dreamer at least a few times in life right?

To take risks?

Even if this... is a rather huge risk...

Hehe then again I haven't told you which schools I'm applying for regular 

Though I'm sure you have a good idea :P

But yes, back to sharing results. I consider, at least at this early point, asking what college you got into so far is like asking what grade you got. It's kinda... 

Well

Grades are a personal thing

So are acceptance/rejection letters

So in this case, it'd be more... 

er... 

"fitting"

for the person to openly come to you and say

"Guess what?! I got into X!!!"

Instead of being asked

And having pressure.

Same goes for standardized test scores...

It's kinda really AWKWARD to talk about your scores

Doesn't matter if you did better or worse than the other person

IT'S AWKWARD

I really hate it when some of my friends openly discuss scores
I don't think I should be obliged in any way to share what I got
 I don't care if they did better or worse than me

To be honest, it's nobody else's business

Ok maybe it is somewhat my parents' business

but that's it. 

...

I guess the only thing left is to say
If someone makes a post like this then:

a) They didn't feel like talking to an actual person about it

b) They're feeling stressed and tense

c) They want something to vent and/or rant at

or

d) all of the above

~Chang'e

Effort Increase

Ok.
This time I'm actually going to try.
I created this blog on a whim. It was originally suppose to be a way for me to communicate with a friend of mine in a foreign country.
Unfortunately, this website seemed to be not liked there (or maybe her computer hated it? Who knows)
Either way, after that this kinda...
Died.
Not going to deny it. Guilty as charged.
I kinda just left this here.
 Hanging
Somehow still existing.

But recently, I've been feeling... hrm...
stressed?
introspective!
tense...
and just overall MEH.
Like I need someone or something to talk to
And sometimes it's not as easy or simple to just spew out at a friend
So I'm going to spew at my computer screen
And see what happens :)
Hope you're all prepared!

Street art... oh the memories

I have a certain friend who I miss dearly who would just eat this up:
106 of the most beloved Street Art Photos
I be jelly at these people's skills.
And I love this so much I felt I needed to share this with the WORLD
Not that it isn't already on the internet :D
*goes more insane*
YAY!!!

Things that happen with Asians around 2am

Guys movies and chick flicks
The notebook vs. Mean girls
X-Man = BAMF
Eating the other half of the pie
Co-ed showers and pissed-on shampoo
Getting a few magazines, some tissues and cleaning pipes
Replying to dirty jokes and THEN getting the meaning —> Spazz eww
Mayonnaise mustaches and Tony’s possestion of mayonnaise 
Innocence and delayed reactions
Giggling while posting on facebook with your roommate in the same conversation
Liking a Dislike comment
Girls with crutches sleeping outside
Creeping laughs and stalkers
Physics and science (and how physics is apparently apart from science)
Liking everything and a need for attention/importance through the liking 

Wow... really?!

Ok so I just found out that someone (or possibly two people) may be kicked out of the summer program I'm currently enrolled in due to alcohol possession. It's so stupid since the mentors emphasized a bajillion times how there is a ZERO tolerance: you will be caught and you will be kicked out.

Call me old-fashioned, straight-edged, a goody-two-shoes or whatever, but I find that to be so freaking stupid. Really? Is this some kind of game because they are damn serious about the ZERO tolerance policy (it's freaking written all over the place... jeez..). No it's not cool to drink alcohol especially when you're told specifically not to (looks even less cool when you're being kicked out dumbbutt) and yes you will be caught: you're not exactly sly, calculating and logical when you're drunk (I'm not even just assuming that they were drunk: they definitely were. i.e.: they were heard with slurs and everything).

I realize it's 2 am right now... but still I just had to rant a bit (though this doesn't even begin to encompass my thought process and opinion on the matter).

So now I'm gonna sleep.

Peace~!

Chang'e

Thou has been forewarned...

This is my BLAHHH MIND-DUMP blog meaning I'm probably going to be posting random rants, story parts from my horribly written work, maybe some artwork and some RAWR AT LIFE emo stuff. He... hehe... yeah :P
So be prepared. And you've been forwarned

Mmkay byes now

Introducing... *drumroll*... me...

Time and time again I wonder
What is this life worth living for?
As cliche as this sounds
The question has haunted me 
For so so long….
So now
As I walk the crumbled earth
View the busy streets
See the walking people
And watch the living creeks 
I wonder
Every single moment of my life
What is my purpose
My reason
My meaning…
Why am I 
Me?